Poem Published in Eclectica Magazine

I am happy to announce that my poem “I Don’t Remember” has been published by Eclectica Magazine for the April/May 2019 Issue.

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My poem is a Special Feature poem that is a series chosen by the Editors based on certain keywords that change every Issue.

I want to say Thank you to Eclectica Magazine and it’s Editors, especially Evan the Poetry Editor. I am proud to have one of my poems in Eclectica.

-Alina

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Guaranteed Creepy: The Ted Bundy Tapes

Earlier this week, I sat down and made the conscious decision to watch Netflix’s Conversations with a Killer: The Ted Bundy Tapes. I had been putting it off for a few days but was interested in the series when I saw it featured on Netflix’s homepage. Right after I started the first episode I was hooked and watched the entire series in one night. When it was finally over I was genuinely unsettled and creeped out.
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Ted Bundy (photo source: wikipedia)

I know the basics about Ted Bundy, especially as a native Utahn, I remember learning about him when I was very young. I’m familiar with the gory details of quite a few serial killers since I have a passion for true crime documentaries and shows but I haven’t been inclined to research out Ted Bundy in detail. This documentary was the first time I learned about the chronology of the murders. A key part of The Ted Bundy Tapes is the eerie recordings of Bundy talking about the murders, closing the distance between viewer and subject, this results in an appropriate response from the audience.

The Ted Bundy Tapes do a good job of summarizing the multiple killings but fails in going into the explicit details. I get the impression that the goal of this documentary series was to tear apart the conversation most people have about Bundy i.e. “but he was so good-looking and smart, he was one of us”. That conversation is related to the creepiest aspects about the Bundy case, people became caught up in his ability to speak articulately and joke around. He was an attractive flirt that could smooth talk people, quickly getting them under his thumb so that he could manipulate them.

I was partially disappointed in The Ted Bundy Tapes because I was expecting a different approach to the subject, such as a detailed history of Bundy’s life, motives, the crime scenes, and the evidence. Instead, it was more like a summary of Bundy’s whereabouts at the time of the crimes, an outline of the killings and emphasis on the overall attitude of the public. The documentary did a good job of discussing the media coverage of the Ted Bundy cases and how towards the end (before he was executed) Bundy became a strange social-cultural icon.

There were parallels that I noticed in the documentary, between Ted Bundy and the Manson murders, specifically the media coverage and the megalomaniac personalities of Bundy and Manson. Both men had a substantial female fandom while in prison, a frequent occurrence for many males serial killers that I will never understand.

The documentary also did a good job at discussing the changing times in America during the late sixties through the seventies, new types of criminals were emerging and there were limited technological resources available to help catch killers. I think these details are important for younger viewers, and I did not realize this until I was done watching the series. I was perplexed when they mentioned the technology available at the time of the murders because I already knew those facts but then it dawned on me that audiences around the age of 14-20 may not know the technological history of the past seventy years.

This was disturbing, the fact that the documentary interviewed people that said that there was no internet at this time or fax machines, that serial killers was an unheard of concept. The documentary was educating its intended audience about the times of Bundy. The details that were emphasized in this documentary suggested that the intended audience is presumed to be very young.

This got me thinking, if I am right about the intended audience based on the goals of the documentary: ‘debunking’ Bundy as a handsome ‘normal’ guy, and the historical details (women’s movement, civil rights, no internet, no fax machines etc) then can I hypothesize that this documentary’s actual goal was re-educating the youngest intended audiences about a new upgraded discussion on ‘Stranger-Danger’?

Not only could this documentary be an upgraded ‘Stranger-Danger’ warning to the youth, but it can also be considered an attempt at de-glorifying a convicted killer. There was an equal amount of emphasis in terms of the fact that Bundy did rape and kill over thirty women. He was a brutal killer that preyed on very specific groups of females, young white usually college-educated women mostly found on campuses.

Even though I consider my ideas about the intended audience and the goal of this documentary to be just speculation, I did like The Ted Bundy Tapes, it was informative and interesting. It was captivating and strange to hear the recordings of Bundy’s voice talking about the murders in the third person, he had to distance himself from the murders in some way.

I would recommend this documentary to anyone that likes true crimes stories or Netflix Original series centered around crime and action.

If you have already watched The Ted Bundy Tapes, I suggest watching Mindhunter, or Criminal Minds.

Alina’s Rating: 3.5 Electric Chairs/ 5 Electric Chairs

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Snowy, Sunrise (poem #361)

The sun blossoms in the hills,

illuminating snow-covered roofs,

a distant sound of a dog barking,

the birds flutter from their sleeping.

Warmth melts the ice, snow begins to fade,

the sky a cold blue, slowly warming.


 

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-Alina

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Sun Pulls Me Up [poem #359] and A Writer’s Life Update

Sun pulls me up

from a deep dark slumber

mixing dreams and memories

together. I am beginning to forget

which is which and who I am.


 

Writer’s Life Update:

This has been my first post in over a week. I’ve been M.I.A. because I’m currently working on draft two of my supernatural thriller. It’s my first novel and kind of a pain but I am sticking with it. Thanks for sticking with me and my poems!

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What I’m reading:

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-Alina

What’s going on? Jan. 9th, 2019 (The Holidays, Patti Smith and Self-Editing)

(Originally published on Patreon on Jan. 9th, 2019)
The holiday season is officially over and I finally feel like my daily life is back on track. Since the second week of December I was working 10-12 hour shifts at least two to three times a week plus a couple normal shifts, my family came into town, and then there was the need to shop for Christmas presents which I put off until only a few days before Christmas…as usual.
On the Christmas week, me and my partner had the same four days off. Christmas Eve and Christmas day we took turns going to each other’s families for dinner then spent the 26th together and finally had Thursday to ourselves, a day for both of us to get back on track. Getting back on track definitely did not happen for me. I ended up going to Park City to spend the night at a relatives house and didn’t get home until Friday afternoon. And the start of my workweek was that same day only a few hours later.
In summary, I don’t feel like I really had a day off on Christmas week, and then I worked all weekend. Worked a morning shift on New Year’s Eve, then worked 11 hours on New Year’s Day. Just one thing after another, got a flat tire my first day off since Christmas, then my family came back into town to say hi for New Years. Started my work week again, then on Monday my battery was dead and I had to take a lyft to work.
Finally, here I am, Wednesday, January 9th, my first real day to myself, my first real day off.
I have a million groceries to buy. I’m down to a roll of toilet paper, a cheap razor found in the bathroom closet and eating chili out of a can unless I want to eat Captain Crunch. I’m not necessarily looking forward to all the shopping I have to do but I am relieved, it feels like forever since I could wake up and know I have an entire day to get my daily life squared away.
Today’s to-do list:
Grocery Shopping
-bread
-soup
-almond milk
-razors
-toilet paper
-snacks
-tea
Laundry – might need to go to a laundromat today, washer isn’t working and dryer is questionable
Go to craft store buy yarn (I’ve been crocheting a blanket the last few months, its huge)
buy detail (fine) paintbrushes, I’m working on a plaque (acrylic paint)
Write (1-3,000 words today)
Work on Blog (set up posts for the next week, talk about where I’ve been)
Post on Patreon (this is it)
Between my shifts, coming home late at night and relaxing before I go to bed, I’ve been reading reading reading. For Christmas I got some pretty amazing books, all the books I suggested or asked for and it’s always great to get what I really wanted.
One of the books I got for Christmas is M Train by Patti Smith. Right now I only have about 50 pages left, it is approximately 300 pages long. It was a slow start and for a moment I was unsure about this Smith book but I am a huge Smith fan, I love her writing, her music, her work, everything, she is one of my biggest role models, so I stuck with M Train and finally got into the groove about 100 pages in.
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Now I’m almost done with it and I am already feeling a little sad it’ll be over soon. What I am noticing in M Train, is that Smith is weaving together many different aspects of her life such as dealing with the loss of Fred (her deceased husband), her dreams (her descriptions of her dreams are poetry, absolutely beautiful), and her travels where ever they lead her (tracing the lives of artists and writers or work).
It is an exploratory journey, reading Smith and there are so many subjects that she talks about that resonate with my ideas and my own experiences. So reading her work is both comforting as well as inspiring for me as a writer to push myself, my writing, and at the same time really be aware, live life and be present with each experience as an individual and as an artist.
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This book is amazing, I am already half-way finished with it and it is the perfect companion in helping me with my first completed rough draft of my book. The advice is amazing and it also includes useful tips, questions, and exercises to help writer’s practice what they’re learning.
Self-Editing talks about dialogue, beats, narration, show and tell, point of view, interior monologue and much much more. It’s written in a very comfortable and clear voice that makes it incredibly easy to read and I’d have to say it is the best book I’ve read thus far on editing/writing fiction. 
I am reading other books right now, about 12 to be honest, but these two are the ones I’ve been focusing on the most recently. I feel like there is a lot that I can gain from giving so much of my time and attention to picking apart M Train while at the same time absorbing everything Self-Editing has to say.
These two books, I know will be pivotal to this month and my writing. For the month of January I plan on finishing my second draft of my book and chiseling out a rough outline of chapters, parts and plots so that I can get started on my third draft which should be (I hope) close to a place where I can start giving sample chapters to people to read (an idea I am playing with, it could be a bad idea).
I look forward to the rest of January and I know that this year will be amazing. I have a load of fantastic books to finish reading, tons of plans for my writing, and a good amount of content that I can start working on to submit to literary magazines in hopes of publication.
Thank you for reading, please feel free to comment or message me.
-Alina