Another Year of Death: Protests, the Pandemic and Mass Shootings

I’ve been taking a break from posting regularly, from writing and reading, to take in what’s happening. Until today, I even forgot this month is National Poetry Month. It seems so trivial compared to the events that are propelling us into another tumultuous year.

When the trial of Derek Chauvin began, tensions were starting to build. Then, on Sunday, Daunte Wright was shot and killed by a police officer less than a year since George Floyd’s killing and only miles away. Protests broke out the same day in multiple cities.

Dealing with the frustration and the sadness of this event while processing the trial’s updates is nerve-wracking. Hoping for true justice for George Floyd’s killing, and then only to have another Black man killed. These events are the kindling for a raging fire primed to spread across the nation.

To me, it feels like this is the start of another summer of protests. The same emotions and tensions are there, but now a compound interest of the events of the past year have the ability to birth events that will make last year appear tame in comparison (—add the growing frustration about the hate crimes directed toward the AAPI community. The nation will continue to ride these waves of unrest until real change happens. We cannot step back into the past; we have to move forward.

I feel a gnawing sadness mixed with irritation. This country is on the cusp of change, but it’s not safe to say if the change will be for the good of the people or reinforce the plague of systemic racism and economic oppression that have killed people for generations.

The poor are getting poorer while the rich are benefiting from the pandemic. The gaps are growing among social classes, which adds to the tension from the murdering of Black people by police, hate crimes, and the pandemic.

The pandemic is an infectious thread weaving it all together. With many places opening up, loosening restrictions, and ending mask mandates without the recommended minimum of 70-90% of the population fully vaccinated for herd immunity to work, there could very likely be another deadly wave like what we saw during winter.

We’ve already lost approximately 562,000 people. How many more will die? I think it is very likely with the low percentages of people either partially or fully vaccinated, this premature reopening could result in states shutting down again this year.

How will it be six months from now? Three months? Who knows, but this year isn’t going to be a quiet one from what I’ve observed.

I wrote this at the beginning of the week. Yesterday, there was another mass shooting, this time in Indianapolis. A 19-year-old man killed eight people, injured seven, and then killed himself. I wonder how many people have to die before we take responsibility for these killings, enact stricter gun laws, and provide more resources for those in need of help. We need to seriously consider why men are capable of these horrific acts of mass murder. How do these acts reflect on the condition of our society? Our country?

What do these killings say about us? It’s not just the actions of one person that resulted in the murder of innocent people, it’s our inability to take action to prevent this that resulted in their deaths. These deaths, from racism, hatred, pain, from the pandemic, these are on us. We have to take responsibility for what we’ve done.

I’m Sick of White Domestic Terrorists and Hate Crimes

We’re not even out of March, and there have been two mass shootings in the U.S. Places are opening up around the country, and it seems like that is an OK go signal for white domestic terrorists to start their killing sprees.

Eight Killed in Atlanta Massage Parlor Shooting

I’m so sick of the murder and death. Where are the consequences? Where is the action? How long does this country have to suffer from this infectious disease of hate?

Ten Killed in Colorado Grocery Store Shooting

It’s not enough to wait for someone with the power to take action. We have to speak up against these killings, these acts of terrorism in our country. If we can come together and put our lawmakers on the spot, we can make change happen. We need those in power to do what is right; we need more restrictions. We need to make our country a safe place for everyone.

These mass shootings take place in establishments people frequent every day. Our schools, our businesses, places we come together as a community. White domestic terrorists are killing us, and we need to act now to save lives.

I’m so disillusioned by this country. It’s no longer bittersweet, there is blood everywhere, and the majority of people still don’t seem to care.

Trump’s own corruption shed light on the rotten mess hidden in plain sight, a plague of crooks and thieves that abuse their power for their own gains as people die.

I’m not proud to be an American until there is accountability for the actions of murderers, white domestic terrorists, and every single crook in office. GOP, I’m looking at you.

Do we have the guts to ban assault rifles? Do we have the guts to enact strict gun control laws? Is this the year where we start to make the necessary changes to save lives?

My heart goes out to those family and friends who have lost someone in the mass shootings. I cannot imagine the pain you must be going through. The shock, the anger, and the despair. One morning your family is whole by the end of the day it’s in pieces.

I stand in solidarity with our Asian-American and Pacific Islander communities. Since the start of the pandemic, hate crimes toward our most vulnerable communities have become more and more common, but they have always been happening. These hateful actions are unacceptable and should not be tolerated.

“…hate crimes against Asian Americans in major U.S. cities surged by nearly 150 percent in 2020…”

Words are powerful. Rhetoric can be weaponized to incite hate and even murder. Trump’s racist rhetoric, and constant finger-pointing on “who’s to blame for COVID-19” spurred a rise in hate crimes. We are still suffering from the damage that racist has done to our country. He should be rotting in jail for what he’s done to all of us.

How can we come together and take a stand? How can we unit and communicate with our lawmakers, with our President, to demand change? Is this going to be another summer of protests? Are we going to have to show the country what needs to be done by pounding pavement day after day? If that’s what it takes, then let’s go.

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A Brief History of Halloween (Samhain)

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I’m three days late but here is my first post about Halloween! For me, the entire month of October consists of celebrating Halloween (Samhain) whether by building an altar, watching scary movies or carving pumpkins. This is a great time of year to celebrate the changing of seasons and have a bit of fun!

Halloween, All Hallow’s Eve, All Saints Day, Samhain, October 31st and November 1st mark a turn in the seasons, a time of year for harvest and awareness for the thinning of the veil between this world and the next. Ghosts, ghouls, goblins, everyone comes out to celebrate this special time of year.

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A little bit of history about Halloween,

Halloween originally comes from The Celts annual celebration of Samhain, a time of harvest as well as the start of winter. The Celts lived in Europe around two millennia ago. The Celts, druids, would have bonfires and sacrifice animals to the gods.

With the spread of Christianity, the ancient druid religious practices were absorbed and ultimately synthesized with Christian practices. This synthesis includes All Saints Day, which historically changed dates until finally settling on November 1st. This holiday is one of respect and worship towards the Saints and Martyrs of the past.

Finally, for Americans (U.S.), Halloween didn’t fully take off until after Irish Immigrants fled Ireland due to the Potato Famine (a.k.a Great Famine) that happened in the mid-1800’s. This famine was responsible for an estimated one million deaths and the incredible decline in Irelands population (Britannica.com).

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Halloween really became more of a “community” celebration in the 1800’s that included costumes and neighborhood parties (history.com). Celebrating Samhain, then All Hallow’s Eve toned down the ancient traditions of sacrifice and bonfires into a more family-friendly holiday. By the 1900’s Halloween became a more established “mainstream” holiday that became increasingly geared towards youths. Finally around the 1940’s the “Trick or Treat” phrase would be born (deliriumsrealm.com).

Thank you for reading!

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Personal Response: Surviving 2017 in the Trump Era

Back in November, I made a brief announcement post that I was planning on writing my personal response to ‘Surviving 2017 in the Trump Era’ and the reoccurring theory that college students are being brainwashed into becoming liberals. This is exactly that.

NOTE: This is my own reflection. I am not assuming a voice for all those opposed to Trump. Anyone has the right to disagree or agree with what I am saying but do realize this is my own personal response. I am not looking for battles or arguments. I think it is beneficial for people to reflect on an entire year like this one, in one form or another to help them gain insight into themselves and the changing world around them. 


 

The results of the election last year were devastating. Not only had Trump won but suddenly the surreal feeling of living in a twilight zone-like reality began. Watching Trump’s inaugural speech on January 20th on TV, the strange and gloomy streets as he paraded in Washington D.C. Suddenly, it felt like something had dramatically changed. I couldn’t exactly put my finger on it but now I think I’ve realized what it was that I felt. This was the beginning of a new time, a new block of time that would have to be sectioned off, highlighted, and analytically picked apart day by day in the future. It has been termed an Era: The Era of Trump. I think this term is correct because now it is apparent 2017 is the start of another chapter in U.S. history.

The Women’s March, protests, petitions, and rumors of impeachment have all added to the growing feeling of tension and unrest in the U.S. Two sides were emerging; in support of POTUS and vehemently against. This divide has become stronger and more resolute as news coverage, tweets, and speeches which all contribute to the obvious reality that the POTUS may be extremely irrational and dangerous. There is little room to breathe when his ego is threatened when his words are analyzed and questioned when his behavior is criticized as being inappropriate and extremely insensitive. But the division between pro and anti-Trump supporters is creating unsafe spaces full of animosity and possibly dangerous eruptions.

After the first month, sleepless and admittedly paranoid, it felt like everything suddenly went into full gear. Every week on the news, every day, Trump words and actions have become a horrifying reality show in that his actions have actual repercussions throughout the U.S. and the World. I have come to terms with the fact that now I have to spend the next three years watching this man puff up and prance his way through international relations. That his arrogance now puts Americans at risk and that his agenda, selective and suspicious, is equally threatening to minorities in America. It has become more and more apparent that Trump’s ideologies may be reflecting in his actions as POTUS.But it hasn’t only been Trump’s behavior that has made the first year of this Era disturbing and shocking but its been his reactions to the horrible and tragic events throughout the year including protests, shootings, and hurricane devastation.

Charlottesville was a turning point. The protest turned violent and deadly, the POTUS fumbled and went back and forth on his own response to the events. The ‘Unite the Right’ rally featured white supremacists, who try to camouflage their hate and identity with terms such as ‘white nationalist’, protesting the removal of a Robert E. Lee statue. Counter protestors were present and violence quickly ensued. Finally, counter-protestor Heather D. Heyer was killed when a white nationalist plowed his car into the crowd.

Trump’s response was inappropriate and strange. I think his words will be highlighted and remembered forever as he said there was blame “…on many sides.” This did not make sense, it still doesn’t. Suddenly people who do not believe in hate, racism, and bigotry were equated with white supremacists? Both parties were somehow guilty? This is when I think America finally began to understand where the POTUS stood in terms of hate, racism, and bigotry if they hadn’t already clued in with his behavior before the presidency. It was so apparent when his quick on the draw tweets and responses were delayed…possibly for once a response was being thought over by Trump himself before coming out of his mouth.

Personally, I was not surprised by Trump’s response but I was devastated by the violence and death. I have been conducting research since then on white supremacist groups. My findings are horrifying and I am now more aware than ever that America may have to again fight against racism (a never-ending fight) on a publically large-scale level similar to that of the civil rights movements of the 1960’s. (Oftentimes I found that white supremacist groups say they are not racists but just have certain beliefs regarding who should be a recognized citizen, including who should have rights, which for them means only specific people of white European-descent. Their definition of what an ‘American’ is, rests solely on their beliefs of race) Not only have I realized this but as a college student, I have been approached by multiple people who tell me I am being brainwashed to become a liberal.

After some research on this theory, I learned that the infamous Ben Shapiro has written a book on this ‘brainwashed liberal’ concept among many other self-proclaimed conservatives. Ben Shapiro actually came to my University this year and gave a talk, it was highly protested and at the same time, his supporters (fellow students) were large in numbers which is unsettling and disturbing. I recognize now that since this event my campus has felt completely different. I have also noticed how Salt Lake City’s local news appears to have their own biases about events such as this. This is not new and it has become harder and harder to find a reasonably unbiased news source that will tell the truth and report what happened without taking their own spin on stuff. This little theory (liberals are brainwashed) is not new but has been present for a very long time. But this is the first year ever, in the six years I have been a college student that anyone has told me this. Now I am left feeling confused and offended. I have worked my ass off to graduate next spring. I have had to save my own money, pay my own tuition, and just this year take out two small loans so I can graduate. To be told that somehow my education is brainwashing me is humorous and ridiculous.

If being taught that diversity and unity among all peoples regardless of gender, sexual orientation, race, and religion (to name a few) is wrong, this belief only tells me that people opposed to a higher education don’t believe that our society can function if it is diverse. I am assuming here that being deemed a ‘brainwashed liberal’ means that I am being brainwashed to believe in equality and rights for everyone; brainwashed to believe it is possible that one day people will be judged on the quality of their character not the color of their skin, sexual orientation, gender, or religious or cultural background.

Higher education isn’t available to everyone and is treated as more of a commodity than anything else and I can understand how this commodity can be manipulated to indoctrinate young adults into particular beliefs and ideologies both pro-diversity and against. But it does not makes sense to me that a higher education means I am being brainwashed. If anything I have been taught to read carefully, analyze, extrapolate, and critique everything that is available to me. After all of this, I am encouraged to give my own response, pull from own experience and education, and ultimately think. It should be noted that at my own university there are Ben Shapiro and Trump supporters and possibly even white nationalists. I am never forced to believe anything, I am given the opportunity to choose, as I think most people do. I am taught to think critically. I am also continuously taught to question my own education, including my university. If being brainwashed means to question everything, think critically, and believe in possibility then fine. I would rather be deemed a brainwashed liberal just because I have a higher education than believe everything on the news, believe the words of our POTUS, believe conspiracy theories in circulation and believe in the fear of change. I never proclaimed myself a liberal but have been labeled one from the very beginning. If this is what I am recognized as by those labeling me then so be it.

Also, If having Trump as POTUS is what it takes for the U.S. to wake up and realize we need to address specific issues that have continued to be swept under the rug or falsely believed to be ‘solved’ then so be it. This is the time for change to happen. This is not a time to be silent and pretend that something isn’t already happening in our country. The political turmoil, the continual protests on “both sides”, the issue of sexual harassment, these events are crucial in understanding that right now is not the time to stick our heads in the sand. We must be vocal and supportive and uphold the rights that we have worked so long and so hard to gain as Americans. If a diverse society cannot be, or cannot function, if a belief in rights and equality for all people in this country is not possible then our country would be exactly the same as it was in previous centuries. If it is not possible then why did change happen in the past?

Ultimately with everything that has happened this year and my own personal experiences, I have come to the conclusion that it is not about survival but endurance.

This is already a long post, and if you’ve read this far I want to thank you for your time. It has been difficult trying to put my thoughts into words and try to come to some kind of conclusion. If I do not stop now I could go on for pages about these two topics forever. How I feel now versus at the beginning of the year has changed that’s true but I find myself instilled with even more passion than before. I have more courage now to write.

Thank you for taking time out of your day to read my writing. I hope you will return in the future.

To my regular readers and loyal followers Thank you so much for your support.

-Alina